Eat the fish and leave the bones

I'm noticing a fish theme here, are you?  It just seems to come up naturally in group and I loved this saying.  I needed this saying, especially today.

My husband fell this past Saturday, down two steps and flat onto a concrete pad.  He said he heard a snap.  The ER told him it was just bruised, gave us an ice pack and a note for him to be out of work for two days.  Something told me there was more to it and instead of returning to his landscaping job on Wednesday, I made an appointment with an orthopedic specialist.  I'm so glad that I did.  His main tendon holding the knee cap in place snapped and his knee cap is free floating around in there.  Surgery to repair it is scheduled TOMORROW!  This was a surgery that should have been performed the day of the injury and if we had waited much longer, the doctor said he would have been disabled for the rest of his life.  The recuperation period can be as long as 4 months.  It's going to be mostly unpaid and we may lose our insurance unless we can pay for it independently which is unlikely.   I depend on our insurance for my anti-depressants and therapy.  Needless to say, I am a little anxious about how all this will work out, BUT, I know group has done a world of good for me because I am not losing my mind at this moment.  I have confidence that as they have in the past, things WILL work out.  I can't control an unforeseeable accident like what happened to my husband, but I can have faith that we will be provided for and that is what I am holding on to right now.  I know God will see us through and somehow, we will be ok.  It may not be a part of my plan for us, but I can relinquish the illusion of control and trust that God will take over from there and we will be taken care of.

When I feel a little scared, I go over how things could have been worse.  He had Zoë in his arms when he fell.  She could have been injured, but she's not.  We might not have made it to the doctor's in time, but we did.  Mike could have hit his head instead of his knee, but he didn't.  Even in this somewhat dire situation, there is still so much to be grateful for.  Still, prayers are definitely welcomed, especially for his surgery going well tomorrow.